HuiLing.

modules this semester is so screwed.
couldnt find a 5th module.
all my modules are memory based this semester.
haiz.
i dunno how im gg to survive leh..
feel like quitting school already...

at first quite happy cux is 3-4 days week.
bt i appeal for a module- foodsci that falls on my off days!
so become 5 days weeks.
so wed, thu and fri 1 lecture each day only...
wasted right. waste time travelling and transport fees.
but bo bian leh...
realli no modules to take already....

i couldnt help feeling stress every minute every second!
i dunno why too!
it's like.. jux the first week? and im already v kanchiong about everything.
guess is cux of previous sem results which made me v inconfident already.
bt i feel angry with myself.
wads with the stress and fast heartbeat that im having now?
exams is still long... why am i so nervous!!!!???
i dun wan to feel nervous. cux i know it will only affect my studies...
bt jiu v involuntarily heart beat v fast.
and feel hot and cold....
arghh.. i hate this feeling...

tt day i had a longggg talk with my parents tt night.
told them abt my studies and how i felt abt school..
cried like a baby in front of them...
my dad told me alot of stories and teach me alot of things.
and i realised that actually my parents din expect alot from me too.
it's me giving myself all the stress again.
after talking. i felt MUCH relieved.
bt dunno leh.
then next day, that feeling is back again. =.=

i wan to feel not so nervous.. HOW...
please..it's jux first week....................................
Loser.