win

hahhaahhas
JC peeps shld be scratching thy heads now
deciding on wad to choose and whr to go.
me too
NTU or NUS
business or accounting?
double degree or not?
ok la.
my grades maybe nt v qualified to study double degree
bt still feel like trying
each school has it's own strengths and attraction
hard to choose ehs..
if nt accounting/bus
wad can i choose?
arghhh.. headache

hmm.
in the previous post
i wrote tt i shld be contented with the results i gt
true, i shld
bt still
still feeling abit sore and rarrrh
when i see pple getting better grades than me
when i know i put in much more effort than them..
老毛病又犯了
hahaahhs.
yea. compare compare
in the end jux feel worse
when jealousy kicks in
cant control.

maybe some pple jux have more luck
example,
student A failed exams throughout until his/her prelims
gt straight As
while student B who maintained his/her good results throughout
scored average
or maybe even failed
i dun understand y
i can only use luck to explain tt
i wun say student A did nt put in effort
bt i dun tink he/she can do so well within such short period
student B definitely put in effort too
bt in the end
B jux scored average. behind student A
hmm. u guys can see me as being shallow or childish
bt i jux cant stand pple like student A
who seems to achieve success like so easily
while for some pple success is like so out of reach
no matter how much effort put in

maybe in my whole life
i can only be good
or very good
bt not be the best..
i'll always be an average person
who jux stands behind others
no matter how much effort i put it
it jux doesnt paid off
or not as much as i tink it shld.

there are pple who can live happily and contented
jux being normal and average
hmm. i cant.
cux i see winning too important to me le bahs....

alrite
enuf of complaining for the time being =X

ytd read newspaper
a korean actress who acted in BFF hanged herself in her apartment
due to depression
now i also feel that BFF is kinda jinxed
F4 and Jandi all had car accidents in during this fliming period
then now another actress died
bt still
BFF is niceee =)
shumin gave me a link tt day to a ss501 show
super nicee and funny ^^
then me found another part 2-keeping the dog one
ding01.hahahs so cute.

dear is finally recovering from his fever/viral infection
after so many days of sufferings
no comp/dota
no entertainment
jux wrapped himself in the blanket shivering
if nt feel like on fire and needa dispense heat by cold shower or cold towel
and slpt whole day
now he is feeling better le
i felt relieved too
and happy for him..hahahhas
get well soon dear! <33.

oh yea
ah ma is now living in my hse
cux her hse is currently undergoing renovation
will be staying with me for 10 days lidat
i slpt in the same room with her
cux i no need wake up early
bro and sis gt school and work
ytd was day 2
after i offline at 2am
i went to slp
at 3am+
i kinda heard a person calling me
then i woke up and found my ah ma calling for help
cux she rolled off her bed i tink
then half body on bed
half body on floor (lower body)
i quickly wanted to help her back onto bed
bt she was too heavy (my ahma quite big size)
i gt no strength to carry
her legs up the bed =.=
yea, legs only
in the end she had to also struggle up bac herself.
then finally ok.
heng she din fall onto the floor
if nt jiu cham le.
then morning i told my mum
then she ask my y din go to her room and call her
i was like
how to call u at tt time =.=
u expect me to ask her continue stranded and struggle there
while i go ur room wake u up ar...hahhhahas
then my mum also laughed
ok. ah ma no hurt jiu hao... ^^

ah ma de health deteriorate quite alot these years
less agile in movement, slower in response, minor bowel problems, and insomnia etc
last time she had depression and always tell us she heard pple toking and laughing at her.
it was quite scary at tt time
from then on her health deteriorated alot
though now she is ok from depression
bt her health din improve
seeing her lidat
sometimes i feel sad la
ahma is a v good person.
a doting mother, a doting grandma
hope her health will improve after these 10 days at my house
(she can eat and slp better after 2 days here =p)

ok
shall end here.
whole post will be of 1 colour
cux today's post abit long
lazy put different colours
hahahhas

nice day everyone!

<33.