F*** mood

ive gt shitty mood again.
tot of many things
in the end mood bcums more foul
suddenly, i feel tt the world is so unfair
hate everything ard me
hate life
sick of everything
even this comp im using now
feel like crying again
if only i have dog..even a small hamster will be enough
to accompany me
i can share my troubles with him
and he listens to me patiently.
without making rebuts
or make me feel worse
maybe he will even console me, by licking away my tears

i dont know y im feeling so depressed too
i tink im getting weaker day by day
both physically and emotionally

i hope to go out for walks
to relax sometimes too
bt transport fees are so exp now
and i lost my mood for shopping and gg out due to some reasons

im still jobless
which i tink is one of my depressed reasons
econs. consequences of unemployment
those hu studied econs will know
i dunno wad are the jobs agencies doing
are they slacking
or they ganged up to blacklist me
or wadever shit it is

now even when tinking of wad to write.
im getting frustrated

u dont know wad i want.