HuiLing.

hmm..
i realised some people are really... i don't know..
they have too high expectations until i find it v scary bah.

i made this new guy fren from my course.
he and his bro are twins and they are in the same course.
we were chatting on fb ytd regarding results..
so i told him i am v stressful abt school and results cux i din do very well.
at the same time he said he din do v well too..
so we were like complaining abt pressures and how school sucks.
and i was like..ok..... at least someone is in the same plight as me...

BUT... after quite a long tok.
i asked him how much did he actually got..
he said he got... 4.3/5
he was unhappy becux he expected higher and his bro got 4.7....
immediately i gave a diaoz face in front of the comp screen.
my first thought was wtf.. tok so long and now u tell me 4.3 u not happy.
totally sianned.
im not saying he cant be unhappy abt his results la..
bt 4.3 u tell me is bad i couldnt accept it...
i dunno.. u can say i petty or wad..
bt i jux couldnt take this kind of things la..

for me..
i just hope i can graduate with a second class honours..
i dun aim for first class.. i dun aim for masters.
i just hope to get a decent and safe cert for future.
bt it seems so hard.
and yet other pple who got it are not happy...
everything boils down to expectations i guess....

i realli need to learn to be satisfied...
bt not to the extend that even if i fail my exams im still indifferent those kind.
just dun expect too high or too much...


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hmm. schoolwork.
sad to say.. i have a malay skit presentation on next next monday.
i realli hate to do presentations and skit la...
super marks puller for pple like me
to me.. the script we wrote were not v good.
messy.. and short...
the skit by right shld bt 10 min.. bt until now.. it's only 5 min?
and everyone seemed to be not anxious abt it except me..
haven even rehearse... haven even finalise.
i realli hate this kind of feeling... to leave things hanging there and chiong to finish it during the last minute.

and im starting to feel tired easily.
and slacky....
also experienced proactive and retroactive interference..
which means old info prevents the learning of new info.
and new info which prevents the retrieving of old info from the brain.
this is one of the 7 sins of memory..Transience.
those who studied psychology will know...
and when i know im starting to be less efficient in learning and remembering.
i start to feel scared and insecure..
and im v afraid that that emo me will be back...

6 more weeks to end of exams..
to leaving hell temporary..
faster faster... 6 weeks is like... so long..
sad.