HuiLing.

hello everyone.

shall blog awhile before i go back to study.
gotten back my psychology results ytd.
glad that my hardwork paid off :)
bt i wasnt feeling tooooooo happy either.
though u said that i should be!
im juz..relieved and glad bah.
mayb i was afraid that this sense of 'happiness' or achievement will soon be gone.
afraid that when u gain something now, u will lose something soon.
so i rather not feel so happy now than to feel miserable when i lose it later.

when one has faced too much 'failures'
and finally gotten some small achievement one fine day..
u will tend to doubt if that's what u deserved.
whether that's realli what u have exchanged purely with ur hardwork.
not purely luck or pity from god and angels.
i tot my confidence would be back after getting a decent result.
bt weird, it doesnt realli boost much of my confidence.
jux feel that i should not feel complacent, and keep up with the revision to get good results for finals.

hahha. am i making things too complicated?
or like what you've said, just be purely happy that u did well.

juz doesnt feel confident enough.

oh yea. malay skit rehearsal wasnt v smooth.
got to rehearse more bah...
hate doing projects and performance!