Wednesday, December 30, 2009


18 months of journey ended.
sad definitely. bt at least u are more happy now :)

people, dun tag my blog or facebook liao.
not realli a BIG thing. ahhahs
and im realli alrite ^^
thanks for the concern!

and all the best to u too! :))

Monday, December 28, 2009

mood gt better i guess..

met my JC girls clique for post xmas gathering ^^
when i reached Woodland Mrt i was approached by this lady
selling health products.. some kind of milkshake
that will help u to lose weight and body fats.
she asked me to stand on the weighing machine.
and my body fats turned out to be kinda HIGH
so after much persuasion. i bought the product... 75 dollars.
yea it sounds v exp.
bt cux one cup of drink can replace 1 meal
or u can drink 2 cups to replace 2 meals.
1 meal = 3 dollars
drink for 21 days = 63 dollars. (cux the powder 21 servings)
so yea. price kinda similar.

had fun at jannice's house
cooked maggie mee, played card games and watched singapore idol!
i hope Sylvia wins though.
is like the winner for all seasons are malay males =.=

heard that weizhi flew off his bicycle on a 'cycling expedition' with the guys today.
and he had quite serious cuts and injuries all over his limbs.
hope he get well soon..


all ur replies made me feel like u are tired of all these.
u even need to consider.
shows that u are already hesitating.. which made me kinda disappointed.
i will not hesitate. cux my ans is a NO
bt if u realli made tt choice. i will respect.

i recalled the pebble theory i heard on TV drama
love is like picking pebble.
on the way u found a pebble which is beautiful and u like.
bt u may start to question.
will i find a better pebble if i continue to walk down the road?
if u are the person.. what will u do?
will u jux accept the pebble that u have picked?
or will u give up the pebble..and continue to walk down the road hoping to find a better one?
bt u may also never find a pebble that is as good as the previous one u found.
even when u return to pick the pebble back.
it may already be picked away by another person.

hahas.
do tell me ur ans by tagging the board!

chatted with shuan just now online. =)
he gave me lots of advices and consoles on the recent happenings to me.
Feel much much better and happier!
at least i know there are pple who care abt me.
and are willing to share my sorrows and problems.
unlike some pple..hahahs

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Worst christmas ever i guess.

sometimes i hate myself.
ultimate loser i realised.
like wad my sis said. i cant take failures. i gave stress to myself.
like wad u said. i harped on the same things over and over again.
i complained abt everything which i can dun bother.
i refused to look forward...
i made myself a loser.
i realli tried to change. i swear..
bt i cant..

ytd nite after i reached home..
i started crying.
i enjoyed the dinner with E2 frens!
bt when i tink back of everything that happened to me recently.
(big things to me but small things to u guys maybe)
i bursted into tears.
was quite glad that i could finally cry and made myself feel better.
bt i couldnt stop in the end... lol
so i cried till midnite and slpt in the living room until this morning
and i forced myself to slp on my bed until afternoon.

dad asked my how much is iphone.
i told him 700. he was upset that i chose so exp de phone.
hello, it was him who agreed to buy few mths ago.
and now he complained to mum abt me demanding for such an exp phone.
and since he is so unwilling.
i told him i dun want to buy anymore.
dun expect me to bear with ur complains after u buy me the phone.
u can send money over to that damn China Cheap women in hundreds and thousands.
bt refused to buy a 700 phone for ur daughter.
who is the woman to u..
it's jux some cheap woman who bore ur father 2 children.
is the children urs? is the woman urs?
fuck them seriously. i hate them.

Christmas was spent alone at home.
was moody whole day with my goldfish eyes.
dinner sucks.
so i went out to eat myself.
was kinda weird. cux most pple are either in pairs or in a family.
wanted to buy some beer and drink.
bt i have driving lesson tml.
so dun want to KO myself..
bt i swear i will drink after 29th.

wanted silence.
so i went to the playground near my house to chill and stone.
bt the silence was broken by this bunch of China aunties who are chatting so louding.
kinda pissed.
bt i continued to sit at the playground and stone.
while watching the cat walking around.
sat for around 2 hrs.
and dad called and ask me angrily whr i was.
i told be im near the house.
he called again. and i jux rejected his call.
v irritating.
and after tt he called me again using his phone.
i answered and told me im at the playground.
he tot i was lying. so i jux told him.
if u dun believe, come and see for urself!
and he realli asked mum to check on me.
mum came down and asked me to go back.
refused and demanded her not to bother me and go home.
only went home when clock struck 12am.

i tink my temper is getting worse and worse
i feel like rebelling. i wan to turn myself into a wild child.
i want to make myself strong.
i want to be happy.

heart was already filled with tears.
and ur msg made my heart flooded with tears.
i tot u are the only person whom i can confide totally with
and share my sorrows with...
bt u tell me
u want to be happy.
u want to avoid the stress.
u want to rest.
u want to spend ur breaks happily.
u doesnt want to emo and become sad like me..
couldnt help bt to cry again.
i could only say, Sorry.
din know i made u suffer so much..
bt to hear all these from u.. it realli hurts.

im totally ALONE now.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

rarr. im so..pissed.
tt fren asked me abt my results.
telling me she dun dare to check her results, fearing it will be bad.
im like... oh please. u sure can do very well de la..
she is like feigning nervous or wad.. =.=
indeed.
she gt a CAP of 4.30/5
if me i will pop champagne and celebrate.
bt u know what she told me?
she said not good..
her grades v ugly.
seriously.
u tell me does she deserve a good beating?
please.. i admit im kinda a sore loser.
and i cant stand it when pple tell me such things when i lost.
maybe some pple are jux so insensitive to other people's feeling..
walau. it's not the first time already.
i tell myself not to talk to u and ask u abt ur results.
cux i expected such things to happen.
bt u come and asked instead.. and it realli happened.
please. dun be so greedy can.
even u gt 9.5/10 u still tell me ur results not good.
i realli dunno wad is good to u...

to such people.
i realli hope u can realli face a big failure and realise ur greediness and cockyness.
super cocky leh.. buaytahan..
at least mind what u say in front of others who gt worse results than u.
it's common sense. have some EQ please.
and such people always succeed and get good results =.=
what to do.. life's like that.

ive gt mixed feelings nowwww.
im upset abt my results.
bt i gt no tears to cry..
feel so heavy inside..
cant even vent my frustration and sadness...
sem 1.. u give me a sad Christmas.
results suckss like hell.
i seriously din expect it to be tt bad la..
Sabrina sms this morning asking me whether i accessed my results already.
so i woke up and on my comp...
she told me she gt 2 A- and the rest A for her modules..
im like.. wth! genius indeed.
so tinking tt i MIGHT get similar results as her.
i log in to the results page..
and tmd, the server jam
so i used sms method.
so while waiting my phone rang.. gt New SMS.
and i pressed read with my heart thumping fast..
then diaozz. it was MingSheng sending me Christmas message -.-
then my phone rang again.
i pressed read.
and my heart Sank to dunno where... joined the Titanic ship le bah..

i actually gt a B- for my econs!
i tink it's v impossible larhs.
i tink it's my best subject cux i have background in it..
and it's MCQ summore..
i gt above avg for mid term.
so guessed i flunk my finals.

gt another B- for my LSM1102.
which is the module which i scored 0 first time in my life..
i tink i did ok to0..
at least a B..
budden. i died too...

PR1301 i did good for my mid terms.
and for the MCQ final year exam.
im quite sure out of the 125 questions, i have less than 20 wrong..
but i still gt a B+..... WHY??
i realli tink i did well.
bt god refused to give me an A.. not even an A-

LSM1101 B+
i accepted. cux i din do v well for my CA2.

CM1401.
all along im not good in Chemistry.
and i din did as well as others during CAs..
so a B.. i can accept.

and total up my CAP = 3.5
tell me. is it good? or no good.
to study honours.. u need a CAP of 3.5.
bt just 1 semester.
my CAP shoot...DOWN to 3.5...
which means i cant afford to get a B- and have to strive for more As to pull back the score.
feel v demoralised, and stress.
friends around me did better than me.
and i feel so inferior again.
i really worked very hard..
i din tink my effort deserve such results..

i know 2012 is not here yet.. bt i feel the world is crushing down
to you it may be nthing. to me it means alot.

dun let the cycle repeats.
i must do something.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

hmm.
boring! though it's holidays.
im so lazzzy to step out of the house.
even if i go shopping.
i will not be in the mood to try or buy the items that i liked... :((
kinda becuming like a 宅女..
cooping at home all day watching online dramas and buying my stuffs online.
Last Saturday went to collect one of my top from my seller.
i simply love it! hahahs. it cost me only abt 12 dollars.
at least it's quality is better than bugis street's one...

today went for my driving revision lesson.
my instructor said i drive toooooo slowly.. =.=
do u guys when learning driving face the same problem too?
i jux feel insecure to speed la... he asked me to go 60-70km/hr

and i witnessed this malay lady taking her traffic police test just now...
kinda felt sad for her...
she was doing her vertical parking...
becux she din position her car properly, she knocked down one of the poles when she was reversing
so she did corrective action in a v weird manner...
and the car was still in the wrong position.
and so when she tried to reverse again.
she knocked down the pole again...
so yea.
20 POINTS. FAILED
i dunno if that will happen to me..
cux my driving skills is fluctuating one... =X

ohh yea.
last week i finally went to run!
have been wanting to go exercise since dunno when.hahas
ran+walked for abt 2KM.
my stamina is realli cmi..
cux i took a break from exercise for....1 year! LOL
bt i will try to go exercise more often and build up my stamina!
i want to keep fit! no more flabby arms and tummy please....

things that i hope to do/ buy during this holiday:
Eat YumCha
Go Clubbing
Go SPCA
Go swimming/ running
Go shopping
Tidy my room and cupboards
Rebond plus highlight! anyone?
Buy iphone
Buy PSP
Buy schoolbag
Buy FujiFlim Polaroid Camera!

always wanted to buy a Polaroid camera since primary school. hahahs
anyone remembered during primary 4 that period
there is this polaroid camera that can take photos in the form of stickers.
like neoprints?
i wanted to buy that! it cost abt $39+ then?
bt cux im only primary 4..
$39 is like the current $390 to me..hahahs.
so in the end. i din buy it..
and now i tink it's no longer in the market. =(
currently 1 normal Polaroid camera cost abt 150 dollars.
i have the money. bt i dun wish to spend it..
thats the problem.

rarrr..
i tink my mindset is v screwed.
LOL.















aint he cute? he was a kid actor during my mum and dad times.
His name is 小彬彬





and when he grows up and got married
he had a son.. also a kid actor now!
his same is 小小彬!

the 2 kids u see in in these 2 pictures now are different person!
one is the father, one is the son.

bt they looked exactly the same! im super amazed.
even my mum too...
Seriously a direct clone of the father.
i dunno where the mum's genes are..hahahs

and 小小彬 acted v well too. like his dad.
his character in [[下一站, 幸福]] is v cutee.
the show is verrrrryyy niceee too!
highly recommended!




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Wednesday, December 9, 2009

How i spent my afternoon:


























Bad boys are sexy (:

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

came back from my slippers hunt.
Happy to say that ive FINALLY found my Tulip Havaianas Fit!
purposely went to to Orchard last week to buy the slippers.
and almost broke into tears when the SA told me all outlets sold out already.
thanks to the CHECK website that i came across while searching for the slippers online.
i decided to make my way down to Causeway point today to try my luck.
and yea.luck is on my side! ^^

but it feels different from the old Havaianas Trekking.
cux the rubber feels softer and more flexible.
i hope it can last as long as my old Havaianas Trekking.
which served me for 3 years!


also searching for good cosmetics recently
feel that it's time to start learning makeup and stuffs.
im like going 20 soon. and i still cant really apply simple makeups =.=
so went to SASA at Sunplaza to browse the items there.
so i asked this SA there whether gt easy to apply and water/oil proof eyeliners
she said yes and showed me one SASA brand one which cost 8 dollars after discount
and another Jap brand which cost 27++ =.=
being a beginner in makeup..of cux i bought the 8 dollars one to try.
bt i bought cux she told me it's waterproof and lasting!
when i went back and try, i felt cheated.
it's not waterproof at all la.
i tried to cry to see if the ink will smudge.
and omg. it realli smudge like dunno wad. =.=
then i tried to apply water.
the water tt flowed down my cheeks are black in colour =.=
so i can only use this eyeliner during sunny days lo.
and i must stop myself from yawning.
imagine when it rains or when i yawn. my face will be like ghost.
arghh. luckily only 8 dollars. if not i will really feel the pinch.


this the the eyeliner tt ive bought. called 'cyber colours'
apart from the waterproof thingy
the application results are quite nice.
though black ink, bt not v black after u applied.
it wun smudge when u rub it also..
jux tt not waterproof la. which i tink it's v impt =.=
im gg to continue my search for the KATE eyeliner
which is recommended in 女人我最大
bt it's hard to find....

arghhh. i sound so pathetic.
like buy one eyeliner also so troublesome =.=

it has already been days. i don't know how to describe my emotions. bt i guess i still feel disappointed. disappointed that u refused to say and do anything, despite me making things clear and telling u my all my thoughts and feelings. i don't know what u are thinking, or do u even know what i want, what i don't want.
im not a kettle of boiling water left to cool down by itself.
i hoped to feel cherished.

Monday, December 7, 2009

currently watching
{U'RE BEAUTIFUL}/ {U ARE HANDSOME}

recommended by jingrong and munyee.
indeed. v nice show!
although sometimes their actions are v stupid. hahahs
managed to watch 11 episodes in 2 days. ^^

some of the pics that i printscreen / copy from web:
the actors are so hot!




Hot guys! except for that uncle in the middle =.=


cartoon version of them

'Pig Rabbit' after 'surgery'. so cute rite!

i tink man go boutique buy stuffs for women is v shuai.


he is 20 years old only ^^ shuai!
at some angles he looks like kim hyun joong.

2 man 'fighting' over a women. ewww.

now 3 man...

OMG! muacks!

Friday, December 4, 2009

2nd Day of my precious Holiday:

slacked at home again!
ewwww...lazybones lazybones
watched 终极三国.. episode 33 was very exciting!

went dear hse in the afternoon and then to Northpoint KFC for dinner ^^
after tt went Sunplaza to help my dad buy his MR BEAN soyamilk
gt E2 sale... so bought some underwear also... LOL
and went NTUC to stock up food and drink!

Tadang!! :


Munchys' new chocolate biscuit : only $1.95!
Kinder Bueno : $5.95 for 2 value packs = 6 packets!
My fav Bandung Drink : $3.10
WongCoCo Jelly : $1.15
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Total: $12.15




this is the hairstyle that i did sometime ago.
followed a hairstyle book tt i bought.
nice? hahas.

tinking of dying my hair again.
and trying a new hairstyle.
shld i cut short my hair?
perm? or dye a bolder colour?

hahhas

ohh yea...i need and wan to buy alot of things!
2 days ago i bought 4 Ralph Lauren Polos online for 100 dollars
whether Authentic anot i dunno =.=
pending to be verified when i received them.
abt a week plus ago i bought a vest from BC.
and 2 tops from a online spree.
few hours ago i ordered a bag from an online spree
total damage less than 200 i tink.
bt seriously i tink still not enough.. im not a 败金女
jux tt im realli lacking clothes and shoes!
those hu are close to me will know =.=

shoes especially
my current slippers when worn during rainy day and walk on tiles flooring is 90% slip and fell
my previous Havaianas broke quite long ago .. super sad
my next available pair are my Converse Canvas and Sports Shoes..
seriously in need of new slippers.
wanted to buy havaianas. bt lazy to travel so far to buy.. =x

someone drag me out...haahhas

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Thursday, December 3, 2009

YAY!
soooo relief! exams are finally OVER!
bt when the results are out..
i guess im over too =.=
bt let's not tink so much yea.
let me enjoy these few weeks b4 results are out.

last Sat went to YukiYaki for the Oct/Nov babies bd celebration.
b4 went to Sitex at expo with dear qy yr and wz
super happy that many pple turn up! 14 pple! hahahhs
had fun cooking and crapping with the peepx
and had fun playing pool too!
especially seeing mingsheng play..hahahs!

today is the first day of holiday!
bt im like already rotting.
lazybones refused to move from the comp chair.
when i intended to go shopping, exercise, play and eat!
maybe i need a few days to get my engines heated up.
hahhas.
bt i watched alot of dramas.
few recommended dramas:







argh. search the pics until i tired le.
blog next time.
bye!

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