HuiLing.

sometimes it would be good to shut off ursef from the world.
dun bother about what others are doing
dun compare ur progress with them..
jux minding ur own business.
easy to speak.. bt i find it so hard to attain..

i tot i was already v hardworking..
bt now i realised it's considered normal.
the new lsm1104 lecturer was a good lecturer..
i like him very much
he focus more abt real learning rather than knowing and memorising ^^
and from the Q and A file he sent to us..
i was v surprised that in few days..
he compiled 11 pages worth of questions from students..
so i guess it shows how hardworking students are in my course.

these few days have been studying for my psychology test on moday.
100 MCQ in 1hr. plus negative marking.
though i feel like i have mastered most of the content
i have a hunch that my results will be the same again.
im jux inconfident of myself la.
maybe my ability is just that limited. never be able to surpass others.
i feel tired again.
and i guess im falling sick soon.
headache is more frequent that usual.
i realli look forward to MAY.
when i can realli let my hairs down for quite awhile to recharge and relax.

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was initially v happy to be able to dinner with u ytd.
bt i guess in the end i made the atmostphere and mood heavy again..
i dun know y i am acting or feeling like this...
maybe my emotions and mind are entangled badly.
i feel like a retard or crazy woman.
to have such weird and loser feelings..
i know it made u feel upset. im sorry.

MOVE ON.
seriously i din tink about this until u told me.
i dunno if i shld.
put down everything.
and move on with my life.
or jux remain stagnant as it is now...
will there be a difference?