sometimes it would be good to shut off ursef from the world.
dun bother about what others are doing
dun compare ur progress with them..
jux minding ur own business.
easy to speak.. bt i find it so hard to attain..

i tot i was already v hardworking..
bt now i realised it's considered normal.
the new lsm1104 lecturer was a good lecturer..
i like him very much
he focus more abt real learning rather than knowing and memorising ^^
and from the Q and A file he sent to us..
i was v surprised that in few days..
he compiled 11 pages worth of questions from students..
so i guess it shows how hardworking students are in my course.

these few days have been studying for my psychology test on moday.
100 MCQ in 1hr. plus negative marking.
though i feel like i have mastered most of the content
i have a hunch that my results will be the same again.
im jux inconfident of myself la.
maybe my ability is just that limited. never be able to surpass others.
i feel tired again.
and i guess im falling sick soon.
headache is more frequent that usual.
i realli look forward to MAY.
when i can realli let my hairs down for quite awhile to recharge and relax.

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was initially v happy to be able to dinner with u ytd.
bt i guess in the end i made the atmostphere and mood heavy again..
i dun know y i am acting or feeling like this...
maybe my emotions and mind are entangled badly.
i feel like a retard or crazy woman.
to have such weird and loser feelings..
i know it made u feel upset. im sorry.

MOVE ON.
seriously i din tink about this until u told me.
i dunno if i shld.
put down everything.
and move on with my life.
or jux remain stagnant as it is now...
will there be a difference?

EWWW..
i dunno is it considered fast or slow.
1 week holiday/reading week just ended.. like this.

-went bai nian
-gathering with friends
-watched movies
-sent shaun and addison off
-studied (SLOGGED most of the days..)

felt that i did not enjoy my holidays enough.. or rather rest enough..
im like mugging all the time when im at home..
i feel tired.
i dunno if im making things too harsh and stressful for myself.
sometimes i realli dunno how to 'be gentle to self' - my counsellor told me to remember.

yea. that's all that i can tink of.
hmm. the day before i went practice driving with dad again..
again.. another round of scoldings...
i made a right turn without stepping on the brakes
i failed to keep within my lane
i made wide turns
i was not observant enough about the road conditions and traffic lights
hahas. maybe dad was right.
i passed because of luck.
alrite. slowly brush up the skills bah..
dad said next practice will try expressway....

v reluctant to go school la.i rather rot at home than to go school..
my one week holiday...
results for lsm 1104 was out...
i gt a B grade. highest grade was A-
i dunno if it is considered good or wad...
may too eager to succeed after the fall last sem..
i dun seem to be very happy when i saw 'B'
but at least im at the average.. 再接再厉 bah!

oh yea.
something v pissing.
i received my phone bill ytd
and to my horror.
3 days of GPRS cost 177 dollars! excluding my plan and call charges.
cux i canceled my GPRS 3 days after i bought my phone
so for that 3 days. the gprs was 177 dollars, near 35MB worth of data.
i called the cust svc to clarify about the bill.
and they are only willing to waive half the charges.
bt i find it v unreasonable.
cux the GPRS are activated sometimes even when we are using wireless.
i dun see the reason to pay for a service which im unconsciously using it.
eugene asked me to scold the staffs.
cux his frens did the same thing and his bill was waived fully.
bt im not good at arguing la..
i ended up getting threatened instead.
then i jux relented with the terms la.
bt i was v angry la. like pay 88 dollars for nthing.
the staffs are v rude also..
so i sent a feedback to singtel and complain.
if i dun get a reply im gg to spam them with many more complains.

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i dunno if i shld use the last day studying.
or shld i use this day to relax and prepare myself for hell.
Oh yea. i actually planned to go clubbing during this week.
bt end up didnt go again..
shaun said wan bring me go Timbre.
in the end we also din go.. and he is back in Brunei liao..
haahsh.

I MUST GO CLUBBING ONE DAY.
PUB also can la..hahahas

YoZ!
Happy New Year everyone!

This year cny is damn sian.
had an argument with dad on eve.
and argument with sis on Chu1.
we only visited 2 places - grandma and great grandma's house
then the rest of the day is rot at home...
i prefer rotting at home la.

chu 2 had e2 gathering.
not alot of pple turned up. cux it's chu2
some of the pple got to bainian.
while the others are not free.
me and yl felt abit bad towards yongrui cux we din tell him that his brothers were not coming.
so i guess he was kinda sianned and bored.
hahahs.
But anw.. hope everyone enjoyed the lunch tgt!

after lunch we went shaun's house to gamble.
played blackjack.
and i lose like 4-5 dollars in total?
i admit i sucks at being banker =.=
then before going back we took group photos at the fitness corner tgt.
the photos are nice!

hahaha.
i din know today is tuesday already. thought was monday.
spent the whole day writing my 2 page Psychology term paper.
though it's only 2 page.. bt i realli cant squeeze out stuffs to write..
currently i still gt half more page to go...
still gt about 1 week to write..
and yeah.
psychology mid terms on 1st march.
it was postponed 1 week later.. was 22nd initially.
but still i hope to complete all my revision by the end of this week..
cux when sch reopen i still have school work to be busy with...
gonna start soon! if not i will not be able to finish.
the last 2 lectures were damn useless.
and i ponned the last lecture =.=
so until now i still dunno what the last lecture is about

i feel that im online more and more frequent.
got to have more self discipline..

take care everyone!

alrite.
mid terms finally ended.
for the time being.
then last one will be after CNY week...
i tink i did so so for my lsm1104 ytd.
its like 8 qns in 1 hr...
so everyone was like chionging.. including me.
and towards the end i jux crap and write..
cux no time already.
i hope the stuffs that i wrote were relevant =X
after reaching home, i told myself not to tink abt it le...
haiz.

im glad to see the positive comments that my fren left in facebook ^^
happy that u guys like it..
my effort paid off! haahs.
unlike school work...

arghh. 8am lesson tml.
first 8am lessons since school reopen.
good luck to myself -.-

school sucks.

bio test was kinda dumb.
too basic until i cant answer.. cux i forgot! =.=
went to memorise and study the details.
and end up forgetting the basic stuffs.
alrite. it's over.
abit upset.. bt im not gg to brood over it..

Fetch Shaun and Addison at the airport last Friday.
feel v happy to see them again!
had fun and laughter there
took photos and videos.. which are kinda lame and embarrassing. LOL
was kinda tired after tt dumb test.
though it was only 20 min.
seems like after test.. i always have prolonged headaches.
back home i bathe and slpt at 2am +
next morning woke up at 8+ again
to meet addison,ms,yl and eugene for breakfast.

by the time i reached home in the noon.
was damn sleepy.. almost KO state liao..
bt i still studied la.
cux of the coming tests on monday and tue...

hmm.
i feel like ive been slacking more and more.
i tink the momentum is gg downslope liao
maybe cux i chionged too much in the front.
and now im kinda run out of energy to mug.
haiz.
and the worse thing is my mid year test is tml and tue.
and i jux started now.
at the same time blogging
and doing videos
and watching tv.
bt not concentrating on my revision.

Drove my dad's car this morning..
to test out his new car as well as to practice me driving.
din get to drive since i passed.
and all the way my dad was nagging and kping me abt my driving skills.
he said my steering was damn bad.
and i passed bcux i was pure lucky =X
ok la.. i accepted his comments...
maybe im not used to Auto car? hahahs.
at least i manage to park the car after.... 3 or 4 times? LOL

then afternoon my dad asked me to drive again.
yea again...
this time he said to sunplaza..
i was damn scared. cux sunplaza de carpark is those spiral ones.
bt he insisted that i try.
so i drove my dad and mum to sunplaza.
and i was being KP-ed again..
cux i din estimate the distance properly.
and the side of the car almost bua the wall when i turned my car.
my dad 'save' the car instantly by turning back the steering wheel =.=
sianns.

oh yea.
i made a new pair of specs!
i tink it look very like army specs.
hahahs.

tests coming up..
sianns again.