arghhh. chem papers sucks.
the questions are difficult again.
we were told to memorise the formulas.
bt i din know we need to know the constant's values too!
like planks constant, gas constant, speed of light etc..
in the end i cant do alot of the question..
cux i dunno the value of the constants despite me knowing the formulas..
rarrr!
same thing. i hope i wun score tooooooo badly.
sigh..sighsssss

im gonna to slack until i happy then start mugging for the coming exam on monday!
needa de-stress and vent my frustrations badly!!


This proves tt im studying v hard!

'Love' Rings
Smiley Rings!
Tattoo on the wrist looks cool ehs? hahahs

im soooo tired.
need a good slp badly.

miss my frens! my dear! and my holidays!

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omg ss501 new album! REBIRTH.
im so addicted to this song. all are so hot!

hate to say that.
bt i screwed my exam today again.
like out of the four 10 marks question. i tink i can only get 20 =.=
i mux say it's a rather tough paper.
at first was kinda upset by it..
but now i dun wish to tink anymore.
i jux hope the grades dun turn out to be tooooo bad.
like memorised all the 10 sets of notes
bt in the end like only 20% tested..
and the 20% are v minor details..which i obviously din really go and take note of. =.=

im having my econs and complementary medicine paper on Monday.
by right i shld start revising for them.. at least starting now.
bt im so not motivated.
like study so much and so hard.
and it's always those tt u din really study that comes out the most =.=
v stupid right.
bt at the same time cnt dun study.
still an exam afterall.. so dilemma.lol

oh yea.
Weizhi's birthday today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

today is a Saturday.
it's sooo...not saturday.
feels like a weekday..

tt day i was telling dear about my 'crazy' idea.
which is to live with my frens
like 5-7 pple living together.
i tink it will be realli great!
maybe can gather all the pple who are studying in unversity.
then rent a house maybe at Jurong?
then after school can see each other..
at home can joke and play or even help each other with their work.
dear said the idea is good.
bt at the same time there are many factors to consider.
like the rental, housework, food etc...
after discussing for awhile
i realised it's indeed not so possible to do that..hahahs.
unless i struck lottery then i will buy a house then invite all my frens to live with me together!
hehehs

seriously hate exams.
like what's the use of exams.
so what if u know what is DNA replication, what is genetics population, mutation etc..
in exams u may be able to regurgitate what u have memorised in the exam.
after 1 or 2 years. i doubt we will still rmb the things that we have learnt..
bleahx.

bt still.
i hope no more screwing of exams.
please...

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hhahaha. taking a break from my revision.

had been wanting to blog..
bt cux of procrastination..
so yea...u know..hahas

hmm.this week is reading week.
had been v hardworking for the first 2 days..
bt after tt i slacked like dunno what.
hahahs.
Saturday is my LSM 1102 exam..
kinda nervous.. cux i gt 0 marks for this module's CA tt time.

it was 2 weeks ago i tink..
was walking v slowly towards my econs tutorial room
with my mp3 earpiece plugged into my ears.
then i heard someone talking behind me.
so i turned ard and removed my earpiece to check if the person is talking to me.
indeed he is.. bt i totally cant make out what he was trying to say.
cux he is a African or black american.. those curly hair pple.
i only managed to catch some phrases like 'walking so slowing' and 'tired'
so i tot he is complaining that i walked so slow that i blocked his path or wad.
so i jux apologised..
then u know what? He repeated his sentence in chinese!
你很累吗？ 走这样慢... i was like totally shocked. hahahs
then i replied him saying bcux still gt time so i walked slower..
he then turn into another lane to his classroom.
interesting encounter isnt it? and his chinese is like so accurate..

still gt some interesting encounters.
but cux it was so long ago.....
i only managed to rmb this one =.=
bt there's one thing i wun forget..
and that is school life's damn boring.
looking forward to holiday!

was reading belinda's blog jux now and something she wrote seemed to be v relevant to me...
quoted from her:

Everyone thinks they're being stressed out by each other.
Everyone's just blaming each other.

"Fuck! Why is this course so tough?! Why the hell is it full of such.... competitive people!?"
And with that in mind they drive themselves on harder and harder. Because they feel that they have to, in order to survive.

But that's what the rat race is all about. In truth, nobody is making us run. We are the ones who choose to run, because we think that if we don't run, we will lose out. And so we run and run and run, until we collapse, and even if we do, we never once stop to look at ourselves but only at the ones ahead of us.

We end up hating each other but maybe deep inside, we're just all the same.
Nobody wants to lose. Everyone wants to win. It's something nobody can deny.
---end

i kinda agree to what she says..
maybe we are the one who made ourselves miserable.
bt still it's something that we have to do i guess.
cux we are students.
students have to work hard and get good results.
and graduate with i honorable cert....
how i wish there is no exams. no competition..
pple so to sch to plainly to receive knowledge and enjoy school life activities with frens...

ok. back to mug.
hahahs.

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another week has passed.
it's juz another boring week..
or a sad week..
alrite.. everyday is a sad day for me..
negative quadratic curve.my cheek muscles are sagging...

Friday was my LSM 1101 CA2.
i screwed the test. it was a EASY test..
i dunno who to blame. or shld i blame myself..
i studied. bt what i studied din came out.
and of cux, those that i din study came out..
felt realli bad when i hear from my frens that they gt all the question right..
and i felt realli stupid and wasted..
din cry.. bt was cursing myself inside...
y forgone such a good chance to get marks for the module.. =((

went to take my Final Theory test tt evening.
booked a practice slot before the test.
and when i reach the MRT station (YCK)
the rain is so big that even with an umbrella
i dun tink i can make it to the driving centre dry.

the worst thing is i din bring an umbrella. THAT DAY.
cux bag v full. so took it out before i left house..
and so suay that i din bring it when i needed it most.
so was stranded at the nearest bus stop for about half an hr until the rain became smaller.
when i reached the centre, only like 20 min left for the practice.
then the person at the counter say cannot take the practice le.
was kinda angry. not because i wasnt allowed to take.
bt the stupid rain...

was on the verge of crying at the centre when waiting for the real test...
tinking of all the things i had screwed and all the things tt screwed me.
bt luckily.. i passed my FTT although i din take my practice.

weekends as usual..
STUDY. bt mainly slacking i guess.
intended birthday celebration for the oct pple at YUKI YAKI was cancelled due to last min changes.
so met dear for lunch at Np Subway.
tried the chicken bacon sandwich.. the new one.
felt so stupid again when ordering... cux i dun know how to order.
it's my second or third time eating.. =.=
bt was nice la.. though v exp. near to 10 bucks for tt meal.

ok there goes my week..

cried ytd nite..
checked my chemistry results online...
i gt 35/50. the average was 35.7
was feeling abit upset already initially. cux slightly below average.
a fren of mine told me she passed her test.
was expecting her getting ard the same marks as me.
bt when i asked her. she said she gt 48/50.
of cux i congrats her and said it was v good.
bt she said she tikam-ed de..
hmm.. tears were welling up in my eyes when i see that..
i guess she was trying to be humble.. not wanting to show off her good grades.
bt her reply still hurts me.

if realli one can tikam for exams and get full marks.
and another studied until her brain juice is drying up and still fail.
i must say it's realli unfair.
UNFAIR UNFAIR UNFAIR. *curse up down left right*
i cried quietly in the kitchen..
listening to my mp3 not wanting to let my parents know im crying.
i asked myself
why study so hard... am i too hard on myself...
no matter how much effort i put in..
it doesnt pay off...
y cant i make myself happier...
instead of forcing myself to study until midnite.
gg library to photocopy notes and books.
doing all the practice questions.
no matter what i do.. i will end up behind..
i hope i can be the best one day... bt im always the average.
y put in best students effort and receive average students results.
i thought alot...
i want to be a happy person. one who can strike a balance between life and work..
and excel in both
bt i know im not one now.
first, im not a happy person.
i hate school...i hate the competition..im alone.
secondly, i have work, bt no life... my life is realli meaningless.
i dun wan to look forward
cux im afraid of the failure that are waiting for me.

i seriously dunno what to do now..
final exams are coming...
i told myself to mug hard and do well..
and still have chance to be on par with the leading students and clinch my A.
bt yet im slacking now..a sign of giving up?
tired of everything. tired of working hard.
maybe not studying can give me better results..
like what pple always claimed..
'i din study much leh.."
and then they top the class. see the link?

can someone teach me how to be a happier person?

Dec cruise any one ?
there is a cruise for 4pax that is quite cheap..
3D2N ard 300+ each.. to Malacca.
sms me if interested.

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