HuiLing.

想哭但是又不想哭出来
应为觉得这样的自己好柔弱

had my Bio LSM 1102 CA1 today
had prepared quite thoroughly for this test
read the notes and reference books since 3 days ago
although it's jux a 10m question

in the end?
i cant do any of the 2 questions
i realli cant do
thought of bits and pieces of the answers.
bt i doubt my own explanation and end up writing craps.
or leaving blanks.
and by the way. it's an open book exam.
im such a dumb tt i tried to tink of my own ans instead of referring more to the books and notes
guess im not used to opening books during exams

out of 10 marks.
i can be 99.999% sure tt i will get 0 marks
if not 1 mark.
if i get 3 marks and above, i will treat u MacDonald ice cream cone
to all those hu read this post, u can ask me for my marks after 1 week.

hmm. im not saying this in a joking mood hor...
im realli sad...
cux i know it's gg to be 0 marks for my CA1...which carries 10% weightage.
i know it may be not alot.
bt still it makes me sad tt my hardwork doesnt pay off.
once again.
and again.

first test in my uni.
and it's already like tt.
totally cushed both my confidence and ego i must say.
i tired to improve and change my studying method.
tried not to be so nervous and take tests with a relax mind.
bt still. it doesnt work..

deflated.
disappointed.
scared.

i though JC life is over.
no more extreme stress
no more failing of tests
no more heavy workload
Damn. everything is just my imagination....

maybe uni life is not suitable for me?
cux i seriously detest uni life..

angel..
help me...pls

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