HuiLing.

DEPRESSED.

NUS bidding system
is driving me crazy..
driving me up to tears..

ya...i know
not being able to get or bid for the popular/interesting modules during first year
is NORMAL...
from what i heard from the seniors.
simply because we have so fuking little bidding power...
i only have 400 pts.
seniors after 2-3 Semesters have 1000+ over points..
how to outbid them?

Bt y are the freshman not protected during the whole of Sem1?
as in allow us to bid among ourselves, the freshmen only...
after 1C, 2A, 2B, 3A
4 rounds of bidding...
i failed to get the 2...just 2 modules i wanted...
i changed to bid different modules after every round..
im not tt stubborn to insist on the 2 particular modules only.
bt still.. i failed to get what i wanted.
and u know what?
then min successful bidding amount is around 800 pts =.=
me? i only gt 400 pts..
even if i showhand.. i still cant get....

so.........................................
i end up bidding nobody wants de modules.
like econs..which is similar to Alvls Econs
and Planet Earth.. a Geog module that studies earth and Rocks =.=
ridiculous and funny rite..
a bio student ended up studying geog and econs.
bt what can i do?
so tell me...
this bidding sucks rite?

NUS still emphasize what flexible broad-based education they provide
flexible? when we cant study the modules we want..
broad-based? yea... so broad until im studying geog and Rocks... =.=
my intuition tells me i will flunk this geog module.....
and tts not all...
the school went to remove 1 tutorial slot for the geog module if im not wrong.
and now my timetable clashes with the tutorial lesson..
TADAH.VERY GOOD.
i wonder how to go for my tutorial.

after all this irritating and exasperating things tt have happened.
one conclusion:
I HATE SCHOOL
and pls...
let some lucky or happy things happen to me...
let me feel... not so depressed about school
give me some hope...
if not i dont know how im gg to live thru this 3/4 years..
i dun wish my uni life to be so sad and boring too..
i want it to be fulfilling, happy, free and flexible!


那份向往未来的心情已经没有了
或许自己没有自己想象中的那么独立坚强

现在的我
只想停留在原地
撇开所有的烦恼
活在回忆里


HAPPY NATIONAL DAY.

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