screwed

screwed chem p1. din have time to shade finish..
first time. and last chance.
i tink im dead.
can forget about getting an A le.
cried and complained.
nothing's gonna change.
some things lost can never be retrieved back..
jux like my chem marks..
hahahaha

feeling better now.
but still upset..
and scared...

hmm..
i cant imagine tt i actually used 13/18 years for education.
really amazed how i managed to pass all these years.
jux find tt my life is so unmeaningful.
and stressful.

i have a goal.
but i cant pursue it.
seems like i dun live jux for myself.
i live for others too.

is winning in life impt?
is winning to you impt?
will life be happier without blindly chasing after victory?
wad does victory mean to me..
does victory=happiness
i dunno. jux know tt life has all along be unhappy.
silly me..lols

thanks dear
for being there for me when im down
love ya <33.