no more.

woke up from my nap after 5 hrs
hope everything tt has happened is not real
bt no..it is
on tinking of me gonna live my life w/o u now.
i feel so sad.
tears start to fall

realised i haven cook u fried rice and spaghetti
which i promised to cook long ago.
sorry for not being able to fufill this promise to u
the chicken wings and hotdog during bbq may be the last thing i cooked for u.
hope u ate them during bbq

online after my nap
double clicked on ur name
and i realised i shouldnt anymore
things have changed
many habits tt need to be changed.
i know it's the same for u too

sorry
for all the hurt i caused
i saw ur efforts
really.
not little, bt alot

sorry
for not being the one doing all the changes

sorry
for reaching ur limits
u had a hard time.i guess

tml is Christmas
planned to go to the zoo and have a christmas meal with u b4 tt
bt now. no more.
though i hope i can do tt with u
dun stay at home and have a lonely christmas
i dun wan to see that

wadeva i want to do with u
i can only seach the memories
'DEAR, I LOVE U'
rmb this
i cant say it to u anymore
though i wanted to.
treasured the memories we had together
realli felt happy and sweet with u
it's a pity tt it was short
bt still. thanks for everything u have done for me
im glad i was given the chance to love you

yea
i miss u
i miss us

lost

chalet ended.
so are we.

wherever i go
i see memories of us
the happy days we spent tgt

hope u will be happier w/o me

promises we made to each other and places we wanted to go tgt
couldnt be fufilled
im sorry

i lost u...
im sad
need some time to walk out of this.

<33.

e2

hmm.
quite pissed
with some irresponsible pple.

chalet will be fun i believe. =)

<33.

Quiz!

The person who last tagged you:
HuangYun...............Jiu. -.- (get the joke? lols)

Your relationship with him/her:
Friend and secondary school mate, and shopping mate?

Your 5 impressions of him/her:
Determined, sporty, incomplete (i mean ur sentences.haha!), hardworking, trustworthy

The most memorable thing he/she has done for you:
she asked ks to cherished me. told him i am a good girl...hahaha =p

The most memorable thing he/she has said to you:
cant rmb too =X

If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
Urmmmm..im straight.. =p

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:
hmm...ignore her and stop keeping contact with her.
or...hire a killer? lols

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason would be:
she killed my loved ones? hahah

The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
Go shopping tgt
make some accessories for her =)

Your overall impression of him/her is:
mature, a good friend

How do you think people around you will feel about you:
Humorous? playful, sporty, 斯文败类...hahahah!

The characteristics you love of yourself are:
im independent, cheerful, sporty.

On the contrary, the characteristics you hate about yourself are:
not adventurous enough, too keen in winning everything, stubborn and ba4 dao4 (chinese function suddenly cnt work =.=")

The most ideal person you wanna be is:
mother Theresa?hahaaah. jkjk
i tink i jux wan to be myself..without those bad characteristics i have now

For people who care for and like you, say something to them:
thanks for everything! friends foreva~

Pass this quiz to 10 persons you wish to know how they feel about you:
hmm.i shall be a good girl like my friend =) dun pass to anyone.
if i am ur good friend..then do it...aahahahaah!


<33.

Jurong Swimming Complex trip

hmm.Went Jurong Swimming Complex with dear, qy, wz,yr and mayer today
din want to tag along initially
bt cux i gt nthing to do at home,
dowan to stay at home,
lazy to go job agency at Tampines,
so jux went with them...hahahaha

alighted at Chinese Garden
then have to further take bus '11' there.

the place was big..
and looked fun...ahahaha
wanted to play too. bt din bring swimwear.hahah
some pics i took with my low resolution phone..hahahaa:



the 3-Storey high water slide =p


see the pool behind the guys?
it's the lazy pool...izit called lazy pool?hahaha
yea the pool with water waves


i dunno the name of this pool. it's like a track surrounding the area
pool is not stagnant. the water is moving forward de.
so sit on the float jiu can move round and round.
hahahah


yea.tts wad i meant.



guarding the floats for the guys...


hahaha.din get to play today.
bt still, i had fun =)
ending off with me and dear <3.

bored lo

arghh......im bored.
gt jobs to recommend?
hahahaa.

did some photo editing with the new software i dled
did some for my blogshop
and it turned out quite nice ^^
hahaha

loves dear <33.

Prom =)

hello!
prom ytd.
din have as much fun as i tot la.
jux ate and watch videos.lol
the prom king was mingda. (he looks v like rain)
and prom queen was jocelyn (pretty girl!)
din have their photos
will update again when i have theirs

reached the hotel at 3+
then played some games and crapped b4 we start preparing dressing all dolling up for prom:

after:

i like this photo!

reached Marriott at bout 7pm
wah.alot pple.
everybody busy taking photos
while me and ks and other frens stood there doing nthing
i brought my camera to the hotel
but forgt to bring it out to Marriott =.=
hmm. anw i also dun feel like finding pple to take shots with
finally after the dunno wad cocktail session
we entered the ballroom after registering =)
the MC was kinda lame and siann
i like the school band
cheryl sang v well and i like her voice!

dinner started with baby octopus and jellyfish! omg.loves
niceeee. din take photo of it =X
then butterfly prawns?.....noodles, ..fish
and finally mango pudding
the food is okie la. quite nice
activities were conducted in between the dinners
but lazy to listen. me jux concentrate on eating. wahaahah

Bangs!

Love dear! <33.

dinner finally ended at around 12+?

wenjun came to take photos with us. then left.haaahah

gt photo taking session, again
pple busy taking photos and finding pple to take photos.
was quite scary i tink.
can see some pple taking non stop. from start till the end
then the AJ Photographic Club set a booth or dunno wad corner to help pple take "professional" Photos at $4.
saw this couple v siao.
the guy was like holding a bouquet of flowers and kneeling down in front of the girl when taking the photo.
as if he is proposing lidat or taking wedding photos =.=
see liao bth. like too much le huh. hahahaa

walked back to hotel after tt.
leg v pain. so dear piggyback me back to the hotel. muacks!
felt so sweet!
drank abit. then waited for my turn to shower
which wad like 3am.hahaah
then went slp in the bedroom
kanna scolded by cy =(
cux i open the wardrobe then gt light. oopx
slpt on the floor. cux no place to slp. =.=
v v cold
dear hugged me to slp =)

okie. end of sharing about school prom
like wad dear said
busy period is over
back to boring life again
nothing to do now everyday. no school, no mugging
maybe time to find some job? earn some money. save for uni. go shopping.hahaah
or learn something.
gg learn driving with dear =)

okie.tts all. bye!
love dear! <33.>

=)

hmm..

stayed at home all day

msn-ed, read blogs and rot..

had a small bicker with dear

bt now okie le.. ^^

jux wan to tell my dear.

i love u! <33.

juz finished making a bag charm/brooch

and an earrring

yea an earring.

lazy to make the other one
hahaha

show u:

=D

prom :|

woots.
gt my dress le.
din collect from the postman
ended up collecting at the postoffice instead.
cux the address was written wrongly. =.=
28th Nov 2008 4:40pm
i knew my parcel is sent bac to sunplaza PO
then mum told me PO close at 5pm
so i ran and rush to SP
then realise close at 6pm =.=
rarrrr.! ahahah

the dress was nice.
only tt it's abit too short
mum was quite unhappy abt it
bt i find it okie la. be more careful in tt dress lo
hahahha

k dress settled
ytd went town again with dear to shop for shoes.
walk for v long. still cant find a pair tt i like
bt at last i found my ideal heels
abt 3 inches high
tried walking at home.
almost died. lols
and my feet ache like after practising for 5 min
dunno how im gg to survive prom in tt pair of heels.
sigh

next.
i shall go hunt for a clutch
and go buy materials for my accessories
now only necklace done.
still have earrings, bracelet and anklet.
like too much le hor.
later look like christmas tree.
but bracelet and earring is a mux la.
anklet gt time then do bahs

love dear <33.

yay! my pendent

okies.
the seller replied me tt the parcel will reach me within another 2 to 3 days
cux now festive period
singpost v busy
okie.i shall trust her and wait for a few days more

stayed at home whole day
dear went chalet.
miss him!

made accessories.
i made a pendent today
actually spent the whole day doing it.
hahaahha
let me show u my masterpeice:


hahaha.
nice ma?

tml me gonna make my earrings
and brooch for dear.
then im almost done for my accessories!

happy
dear coming back tml =D

prom! @@

hmm.
random thought suddenly.
i dun feel excited abt gg prom anymore.
everything is like so troublesome
searching for dress. heels. bags
makeup artists. hairstylists.
all these cost a bomb
and it's jux for a one day thing
hopefully prom will be fun (i guess it will be not)
if not my money is spent for nthing.

and the frustrating thing is
i have not received my dress.
which the seller claim she has sent it out a week ago
and there is overload of parcels at singpost.
shall wait for a few days more
have not even buy my heels and clutch.
see.
prom is so mafan.

美丽要付出代价=.=

town trip

went dear's hse yesterday to bring him lunch
and headed down to town at 4+
Shopped farest.
and dear bought a set of clothes; a black blazer and white pants
it looked nice! dear looked so handsome =D
wore heels ytd..and my foot pained like dunno wad.hahaha
bought nothing except a belt.
wanted to buy heels for prom
but haven receive my prom dress parcel.
so dunno wad shoes to buy.
pray tt my parcel reach asap. not much time left.

shopping with dear feels so nice and happy.
had a happy and sweet day outside with dear =)
im sure dear feel the same too
love ya dear! <33.

sunday!

tadang!
me with my cute bangS! and dear <33.

today went lunch with dear
MOS Burger
then bought 2 hp straps, one boy one girl...
hehehee

then dear pei me go amk the craft shop to buy beads and tools
for my jewellery making attempt 1
went amk library to read books on jewellery making
then we go bac to the shop to buy more things
dear bought me a round noose and flat noose plier.
thanks dear!

so went bac to my hse
started my first attempt
dear also trying to make some things out of the pliers and wires.
while me focus on my earring making
and tandang! 2.
i made my first pair of earrings




took me quite some time to do
but i tink it looked niceee =)
can do to sell
wahhahahaa. extra income! lols

shall buy more beads and materials and make more over the next few days
possible make myself a pair of earrings and necklace for prom..
then more unique and special
hope la..
if cannot then buy lo.....

chatting with dear on the phone now
he kept yawning! lols
dear gg chalet on tue.
will miss him de. mux enjoy wor!
Love ya dear. <33.

no title =X

went swimming with dear today
reach thr le jiu rain
mr sun hid himself dunno whr.
then quite cold
swim for not long jiu left for lunch

bio p3 was alright
but the essay gave me a shock
all on human genome project
which i din memorise v much or detailed
managed to crapp out the ans la
hope can gain me some marks

thu last paper!
look forward.
many things i wanna do
yeah.


hmmm
i dun like the cold dear
b happy =D

screwed

screwed chem p1. din have time to shade finish..
first time. and last chance.
i tink im dead.
can forget about getting an A le.
cried and complained.
nothing's gonna change.
some things lost can never be retrieved back..
jux like my chem marks..
hahahaha

feeling better now.
but still upset..
and scared...

hmm..
i cant imagine tt i actually used 13/18 years for education.
really amazed how i managed to pass all these years.
jux find tt my life is so unmeaningful.
and stressful.

i have a goal.
but i cant pursue it.
seems like i dun live jux for myself.
i live for others too.

is winning in life impt?
is winning to you impt?
will life be happier without blindly chasing after victory?
wad does victory mean to me..
does victory=happiness
i dunno. jux know tt life has all along be unhappy.
silly me..lols

thanks dear
for being there for me when im down
love ya <33.

101008

Ewwww.. i missed it.
but its a decision i made myself.
so dun regret! =p
anw. i gained more than wad i lost.
its worth it...
hehehe

love bibi!~ muacks!

10/10/2008
officially not a student of AJC.
yea im super happy u know.
finally leaving this school.
but seriously i tink im starting to like my class.
but like too late..hahaha
abit bu she de them.
anw will get chance to meet up again de..

focus on A lvl!
jiayou!

i love u

we once weeped for each other.
we shared our joy and showed our deepest love for each other.
we talked and imagine our future together.
though not much memories together
but those are happy and precious moments
which i treasured
i know i brought u sorrows and changed ur life.
i dun mean it. i wish u are always happy.
but.....
im sorry.

but please dun let me go so easily.
unless u dun love me anymore.
i shall wait for u.

i Love you <33

=)

life is hell

life has been boring and stressful these days.
results are disappointing and sucky.
though up till now i have not fail any subjects,
but my grades are all Es and Ds
yea. its upseting and demoralising.
guess its time to wake up and mugg full force.
but sometimes.
effort do not pay off... at least for my case.
hmm.bt wad can i do......

problems started to surface between us recently.
soon one problem is solved. the other appeared.
time is wad we need
to know and understand each other better
to be understanding and more forgiving.
to be less dependent and more trustful of each other
hmm.. i feel bad sometimes.
because i am insensitive to ur feelings and neglected ur needs.
im really sorry
i will make the change. =)

suddenly.
i forgt how to smile.
i made frens with tears...lol

i Love u dear..always
<33

love hurts =/

maybe im not good enuf.
im insensitive to ur feelings. i neglected your needs.
really sorry...

but im not perfect.
everyone makes mistakes.
seeing u sad hurts me. i realli did not mean to hurt u

those words hurt me. i hope u know.

sometimes love hurts.
but i never regreted.

because i love u.
i dun wish to lose u.

tell me.dun keep to urself
<33

im always here.

arghh

17th Spet 2008
this day sucks..
experience pain, sorrow, disappointment, anger, bla bla bla
all kinds of feelings..
jux felt miserable

sometimes really i dun understand..

handwriting test

haha..did the handwriting test on http://www.handwritingwizard.com
the analysis is quite accurate i tink.. =))

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Welcome Hui Ling Lin, here is your handwriting analysis.

Hui Ling is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.
Hui Ling will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Hui Ling an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.
When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Hui Ling is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.
Hui Ling is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Hui Ling doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Hui Ling will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Hui Ling believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Hui Ling will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

In reference to Hui Ling's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Hui Ling slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.
She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Hui Ling can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Hui Ling's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Hui Ling that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Hui Ling also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Hui Ling is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Hui Ling's self-concept is artificially low. Hui Ling will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Hui Ling to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Hui Ling is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Something is incomplete in Hui Ling's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Hui Ling's sexual needs.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Hui Ling has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Hui Ling fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Hui Ling has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Hui Ling is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Hui Ling would like to leave the past behind and move on.

prelims

yo..i know v long nv blog liao
lazy..haaaa
hmm.. life now isnt so hectic as before..
lectures are less boring and draining...
homeworks are getting lesser and lighter...
feel abit more relax now... but sometimes like too slack le..
prelims starting on the 27th of Aug..
but i have not realli started my revision..
first i dun feel the sense of urgency...dun have the motivation to start mugging..
secondly i tink im getting complacent..
cux midyear gt quite decent results..
i wun say it is v good.. but im happy de results..
kept telling myself that yes, i remembered all my stuffs..
no need so early to start revising..
but actually i forgt a big portion of them le..
jux tt my subconscious doesnt want me to face reality..lol

okok..i shall be a good girl and start mugging soon..

---------------
im toking less and less to you lately..
in fact i dun wish to tok to you v much...
cux of ur attitude..and the way u said things and rebut other pple...
it jux made me feels so..bu shuang..
nt all the things u said are right and we mux accept..
yea. i admit im quite pissed by ur attitude..
jux tt i dowan to show it..
afterall we are from the same clique..
----------------
yay..with effect from monday
we are using the shortened timetable!
no more late dismissal...can go home EARILER
but not EARLIEST
compared to other classes, 1007 timetable still sucks...
among other classes, we are the latest to go home..
maybe nt latest, but later..
realli v sianned..pure classes always go good..
gt all the benefits. mix class always much accept such lan de arrangement..
but hao guo mei you la..
juc hang on a few mths..
and i can break free from everything!

have been sick for the past one week..
last friday had fever..
and had the worst headache of the century..
its so pain that i cant stop crying...
went to see doc.. he said i had a cold..
after medicine, went to slp..
and i kind of recovered after a few hours if slp..

tts nt all.
and i developed a serious sorethroat..
v pain again..

then...
i started coughing...
with the thick mucus i duno whr they come from..
and the cough persisted for a few days..
until now still coughing...
like a grandma..throat v itchy..cnt control.

may i get well soon
and ace my prelims! =)

love my dear <33

^^

Boo.hmm.
have been quite busy recently.
tests and homeworks are really scary. i mean their quantity
can like have 3 tests in a week..
i have 2 more tml.
GP quiz, which will test on the things and events over past 30 years (omg, 30 years?)
and econs essay test...
im jux starting to read only.
the 3 prelim papers i only did 1.5 of it..haha

k la..i find myself quite slack recently..
maybe mugg too much during June.
now the drive and motivation sliding down le.
must try to reach the peak again. if nt prelims is die de lo..

today after tuition went to Queensway to buy ks prez, shun bian search for bags and shoes.
in the end i bought a NIKE bag.. cost me 101 bucks.
k i know its v exp.
i tink v long k...stand there ponder and ponder...considering whether to buy it.
but i realli quite like the bag la..
once in awhile nvm rite..haha.
i will save bac the money bac de.. ^^
then after buying the bag. i left 3 bucks..
lol. sounds v cham yea..haha

haiz.
a new week again..i have 5 days to endure again..
life is boring...
maybe nt..haha ^^
<3

jc life.

people im back.
yea gt back maths and econs papers
as expected both E grades.lol
but econs..haha.. i am in the 93th percentile despite an E grade.
so u can see how badly the cohort did. ^^
afterall. im still quite happy cux i passed all my subjects..

now term 3.. omg
life is hectic and crazy..
every week one GP essay, one econs essay.
for this weekend.
i gt 3 JC prelim papers to do.
and i spent 2 days doing 1 only.
nt tt im slacking. but i do v slowwww...haiz
slightly more than one mth to prelims... im starting to feel the stress again.
sian ar sian ar.. =[

stabalising in progress.hhaa
<33

=D

my thoughts are Very like sine graph..haha
maybe i shld aLways remind myself..
im nt perfect.
need mOre time i guEss.

mid year exams are out.
Bio- B ( 1 more mark to A )
Chem- C
GP- D

left maths and econs. hopeless.haha

<33.

love loved

i am v happy now.
feel so loved.

didnt expect tt rainy day to bring us together..
u gave me a different feeling.
im glad to have u =)

term3

term 3 school life is seriously hectic and sucks.
the homeworks alone is enough to stress and drown u to death
unless you are a super mugger or zombie who do nt need to slp..
i dun tink it is possible to finish all the work by the given deadline.

despite all of this.
life is still sweet..cux i have you =)

bluez

2nd day after midyear.
has been slacking for the past 2 days..
did abitttt of hmwk. but ans all copy frm tys de..haa

went 755 for bball this morning.
apparently i went there zo bo only...didnt play
but had fun by watching them play..
their conversations are realli funny..
and we kept shooting pigu by saying tt his skills are lan..
indeed they are...
mayer and ks even bet with eugene that if he shoot in one ball, they will give him 50 cents or one dollar..haha.
weixiong came to bball also..
then he told me some things tt i find it quite creepy..haa
glad to c him well and happy again.

after tt went to coffeeshop for some drinks.
then chatted awhile.
also funny stuffs la..haha

then go northpt. mayer wan buy waterbottle.
then i wanted to go but some girl stuffs...
then the guys hor..still follow me after i say bye bye to them...
made me so ps.

tml monday le..
my tutorials are still untouched.
still neeeda install duno wad new things into the gc..mafan.
have to endure one week again.
sian..
i wan go swimming.. if nt go tan.. i wan black black... =p

im vexed.
yea.bcux of u.

midyear =/

hahah
v fast..today wednesday de..
friday left maths paper 2 and bio paper 1..

hmm..
i screwed maths.. seriously screwed la..
at first was quite confident..but towards the middle
i cant do the questions le..
so jux skipped and skipped..
haiz..the probability of failing the paper 1 is 1..
so have to mugg hard for paper 2... to make up for paper1

as for other subjects.
i tink i didnt do very well either..
bio econs chem...
but at least i manage to complete the papers.
which i didnt managed to in the past.

actually i dun carry much hope le..
after so much of failings..
but i know i tried my best..no regrets =)

friday is day..
finally free from the midyear stresss.
can rest le..
my health is seriously deteriorating due to the mugging during june.
headache, nauseous, dizzy, tired, weak
guess its the time for me to get a good rest..
b4 i continue to fight the war..
if nt i tink i will collapse anytime soon.


hmm...
enjoyed chatting and crapping with him for the past few weeks..
hee..
dun ask me who.

haiz. everything around me is uncertain.
lets not carry too much hope =X

omg. 4 more days

haiz.
4 more days to monday.
still gt quite alot to study...
during the first week of hols i v pia..alot drive.
then now v slack.. study nt half hr then wan slp le..
i tink partly is because i slpt v late..2-4am
my dark rings are serious man. v ugly now..
haha

and ya.. i cant concentrate on revising..
cux of some stuffs..it jux kept occupying my mind..
then i cant stop tinking..
quite vexing..

hmm sometimes i tink im nt cut for relationship.
for im too fickle minded.. and no confidence also.
but i yearn for one... irony.
arghh.
so unsure of my own feelings.
do i? or not? im still searching for an answer.

things jux come at the wrong time man.

k focus focus..
after midyear zai shuo bah..

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